Sunday, December 25, 2011
MERRY CHRISTMAS YEOREUBEUN!!
Painted my nails purple gradient with blings for Christmas!!
Christmas party with family at my godparents' house. Kan papa baked these two log cakes himself! :3 The choco alcoholic cake was yums!
Log cake and Christmas party at Vernon's. His house is so pretty!! There are 3 levels but there are like intermediate levels. So it's like level 0.5, level 1, level 1.5... etc. And the kitchen is at level 2 LOL -.-''
Party at Kan mummy's house with lots of tempura!!
And... not related to Christmas but... HEH. I'm so attracted to HOYA!!
Hoya~
Onew oppa, you're still my favourite!! Love you hubby!! :D I'm so excited for SHINee's korean comeback next year!! Take care of yourself and don't overwork okay, darling? Saranghae!
Painted my nails purple gradient with blings for Christmas!!
Christmas party with family at my godparents' house. Kan papa baked these two log cakes himself! :3 The choco alcoholic cake was yums!
Log cake and Christmas party at Vernon's. His house is so pretty!! There are 3 levels but there are like intermediate levels. So it's like level 0.5, level 1, level 1.5... etc. And the kitchen is at level 2 LOL -.-''
Party at Kan mummy's house with lots of tempura!!
And... not related to Christmas but... HEH. I'm so attracted to HOYA!!
Hoya~
Onew oppa, you're still my favourite!! Love you hubby!! :D I'm so excited for SHINee's korean comeback next year!! Take care of yourself and don't overwork okay, darling? Saranghae!
what we could have been, 9:47 PM.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
SHINee photos~
Onew, Taemin and Key in their Barcelona photobook.
Onew during Idol Championships. It's an idol sports competition. I wish Onew wouldn't participate in it though, cause his Onew sangtae always acts up and my darling ends up falling down.
2min!! Minho and Taemin love.
Dubu ya~ why you hiding under big umbrella?
Taemin's cute pout! :3
Taemin pouting again with his mouth full of water. Cute!
SHINee makes me fall in love with KPOP. Love you boys so much!
Love this photo of blonde Taemin!! I miss SHINee World Concert so so much. I had SWC withdrawal symptoms after the concert!
Lastly, Saengilchukahamnida my wangja Choi Minho!! Sarangheyooooo ~
Onew, Taemin and Key in their Barcelona photobook.
Onew during Idol Championships. It's an idol sports competition. I wish Onew wouldn't participate in it though, cause his Onew sangtae always acts up and my darling ends up falling down.
2min!! Minho and Taemin love.
Dubu ya~ why you hiding under big umbrella?
Taemin's cute pout! :3
Taemin pouting again with his mouth full of water. Cute!
SHINee makes me fall in love with KPOP. Love you boys so much!
Love this photo of blonde Taemin!! I miss SHINee World Concert so so much. I had SWC withdrawal symptoms after the concert!
Lastly, Saengilchukahamnida my wangja Choi Minho!! Sarangheyooooo ~
what we could have been, 9:47 PM.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
SHINee interview in Taiwan. My SHINee oppas are so cuteeeeee. Onew sangtae and OnKey lovebirds and JongTae moments. Their brotherly love for one another is so sweet (: Love love!
what we could have been, 10:20 PM.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
What is the toughest job in the world? I would say life. Because living is the toughest job in the world.
what we could have been, 10:20 PM.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Things are not going well for me recently. Everything seems to be at a dead end. No exit. Like trapped inside a vast space and I'm just wandering around aimlessly in hope of finding light. And the boundaries are far into the horizon. Never ending. I'm so... lost? Yeah. I guess that's it. Lost.
I don't know what I want any more. I wanted to teach. So I became a tutor. But I also wanted to travel the world. I wanted to be a korean-celeb make-up artist. I wanted to live in Taiwan and Korea. And I'm still stuck in Singapore, studying and working, wasting my youth for a piece of crap certificate. What have I done to myself?
I've been thinking a lot lately, and I wonder... Is there a problem with me? I seem to be on bad terms with everyone. Or maybe this year is indeed a bad year for me. I'm so jinxed this year. Really.
Let's start with my relatives. I have always been on good terms with my cousins and aunts and uncles. We meet for dinner every Sat at my grandma's place. We'd chat and hang out. I felt so comfortable and happy just spending time with them. But something major happened and I mentioned it before. It had to do with me wanting to move out and my relatives telling on me to my parents. And then, I stopped talking to them. Everyone. Because I hate it when people betray me. It gave me so much stress because there was no one I could talk to. I fell out with my parents, so I couldn't talk to them. My relatives betrayed me, so I couldn't talk to them either. And my friends... I couldn't find someone close enough to talk to. I never felt more alone. I can't bring myself to forgive my relatives who told on me. We're still not talking now and I feel awkward around them.
Besides my relatives, I fell out with my grandma, my parents and my sis too.
My grandma. I've always been close to her. She brought me up and I love her more than I love my parents. But somehow, we grew apart. I don't know why, I really don't. I know she is old and her time is limited, so I try to visit her as often as I can, bring her out to eat, spend time talking to her, listen to her grouses... Until recently. She doesn't want to go out with me anymore. I would call and ask if she wants to go out for lunch together, but she would tell me she wants to watch tv, she has housework to do, she is tired... etc. All excuses. So, I gave up. I stopped asking her out. I stopped calling. And she never called me back too. This makes me really sad. What happened?
My parents. I was never close to my parents. They didn't bring me up, never knew what I liked or disliked, and frequently used money to threaten me. My mum would always tell her friends and colleagues and relatives that I treated her like an ATM and a chauffeur (when I was in JC and couldn't work). So I swore never to ask her for money. Ever.
Lastly, my sis. My best friend. My closest family. She knew me best. My habits. What I liked and disliked. I could tell her almost everything. What I thought about our parents. School. My tuition kids. Everything. We used to eat at eighteen chefs and ikea. We used to treat each other for lunch. We used to just hang around the playground near our house to chat. But we haven't talked in months. Maybe half a year? I don't know. Maybe we'll end up like Gifford and his sister. They haven't talked in ten over years because of a fight when they were young. Maybe.. it's better for us not to talk anyway.
I wish I were born without anyone. So I wouldn't feel the loss now.
I don't know what I want any more. I wanted to teach. So I became a tutor. But I also wanted to travel the world. I wanted to be a korean-celeb make-up artist. I wanted to live in Taiwan and Korea. And I'm still stuck in Singapore, studying and working, wasting my youth for a piece of crap certificate. What have I done to myself?
I've been thinking a lot lately, and I wonder... Is there a problem with me? I seem to be on bad terms with everyone. Or maybe this year is indeed a bad year for me. I'm so jinxed this year. Really.
Let's start with my relatives. I have always been on good terms with my cousins and aunts and uncles. We meet for dinner every Sat at my grandma's place. We'd chat and hang out. I felt so comfortable and happy just spending time with them. But something major happened and I mentioned it before. It had to do with me wanting to move out and my relatives telling on me to my parents. And then, I stopped talking to them. Everyone. Because I hate it when people betray me. It gave me so much stress because there was no one I could talk to. I fell out with my parents, so I couldn't talk to them. My relatives betrayed me, so I couldn't talk to them either. And my friends... I couldn't find someone close enough to talk to. I never felt more alone. I can't bring myself to forgive my relatives who told on me. We're still not talking now and I feel awkward around them.
Besides my relatives, I fell out with my grandma, my parents and my sis too.
My grandma. I've always been close to her. She brought me up and I love her more than I love my parents. But somehow, we grew apart. I don't know why, I really don't. I know she is old and her time is limited, so I try to visit her as often as I can, bring her out to eat, spend time talking to her, listen to her grouses... Until recently. She doesn't want to go out with me anymore. I would call and ask if she wants to go out for lunch together, but she would tell me she wants to watch tv, she has housework to do, she is tired... etc. All excuses. So, I gave up. I stopped asking her out. I stopped calling. And she never called me back too. This makes me really sad. What happened?
My parents. I was never close to my parents. They didn't bring me up, never knew what I liked or disliked, and frequently used money to threaten me. My mum would always tell her friends and colleagues and relatives that I treated her like an ATM and a chauffeur (when I was in JC and couldn't work). So I swore never to ask her for money. Ever.
Lastly, my sis. My best friend. My closest family. She knew me best. My habits. What I liked and disliked. I could tell her almost everything. What I thought about our parents. School. My tuition kids. Everything. We used to eat at eighteen chefs and ikea. We used to treat each other for lunch. We used to just hang around the playground near our house to chat. But we haven't talked in months. Maybe half a year? I don't know. Maybe we'll end up like Gifford and his sister. They haven't talked in ten over years because of a fight when they were young. Maybe.. it's better for us not to talk anyway.
I wish I were born without anyone. So I wouldn't feel the loss now.
what we could have been, 11:19 PM.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
SHINee at after-party, celebrating after their Osaka concert!!
Onkey couple!!
Taemin shaves his underarms!! Hehehe :P
Taemin and his static hair! Omo.
Key and his Bumble Bee! SHINee is currently endorsing Etude House with Sandara of 2NE1!
Oppa ya~ what is so funny? :D
My current wallpaper!!
Onew oppa, saranghamnida*hugs*
Maknae ya~ why your hair so wetttt??
Oppa, you want to kiss me? *popo~* kekeke.
I AM A SHINEE GIRL~ :D
what we could have been, 1:50 AM.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
You know how there's a saying that goes something along the lines of "Chatty people are not any less depressed than quiet people. They are just better at hiding their feelings."
Sayings don't just appear out of nowhere. There's a certain truth in it. Chatty people are just better actors, better at cheering people up, better at creating a happy atmosphere. No one can be perfectly happy and contented all the time. Chatty people have their ups and downs too. And like everyone else, chatty people have feelings and get sensitive when people say nasty things.
So here goes.
Just because I can take jokes doesn't mean you can say nasty stuff in my face. Just because I am the kind of girl who doesn't behave femininely doesn't mean I don't have my sensitive side. Just because you don't mean it doesn't mean I won't mind it.
People who are truly sensitive will not show their sensitive side, because they are afraid people will judge them. They keep their feelings to themselves, bottled, sealed, buried. They appear strong in front of everyone else but when night falls and they are alone, the tears fall. And because no one knows, everyone thinks these people are the happiest.
How wrong they are.
Sayings don't just appear out of nowhere. There's a certain truth in it. Chatty people are just better actors, better at cheering people up, better at creating a happy atmosphere. No one can be perfectly happy and contented all the time. Chatty people have their ups and downs too. And like everyone else, chatty people have feelings and get sensitive when people say nasty things.
So here goes.
Just because I can take jokes doesn't mean you can say nasty stuff in my face. Just because I am the kind of girl who doesn't behave femininely doesn't mean I don't have my sensitive side. Just because you don't mean it doesn't mean I won't mind it.
People who are truly sensitive will not show their sensitive side, because they are afraid people will judge them. They keep their feelings to themselves, bottled, sealed, buried. They appear strong in front of everyone else but when night falls and they are alone, the tears fall. And because no one knows, everyone thinks these people are the happiest.
How wrong they are.
what we could have been, 6:56 PM.
SHINee. MY WORLD.
I'm so in love with SHINee!! I want to marry Onew, be best friends with Key, and take care of Taemin!! Oppa ~ come to Singapore and marry me please? :D
what we could have been, 1:35 AM.
